I used to be so chill and relaxed about stuff like that. Maybe b/c I was overwhelmed by pregnancy and kids? Or, am I just getting more controlling now that I can? Perhaps I am holding on to the few small things I can still control b/c I am feeling like they are growing up too fast? I think I have spent so many years now (going on 12) either anticipating pregnancy, pregnant, nursing, and chasing 2yo's that I don't know what to do with myself now that I am rapidly closing that door. Am I going crazy?
Don't get me wrong...when I am not mourning over another pair of outgrown baby shoes, I am giddy with the idea of not having to swap kids to volunteer in the classroom, or eventually going out on a date without paying a babysitter (only 2 more years!), or eating lunch with a girl friend, during a (gasp) WEEKDAY, but I still feel like I am losing a bit of my identity now that I am "done"!
So is it midlife crisis? Is it no more baby blues? Or am I just going crazy?